Beginning
I've started this because I like looking back over old diaries and I always regret how unfaithful I've been in keeping them. They generally trail off after the initial burst of enthusiasm. Nevertheless when I am writing in one I'm generally doing it in the secret hope that one day it'll get published and people will marvel at my wisdom and, perhaps more importantly, care about what I was feeling and what I was thinking.
To be honest that's a bit of a theme of my life. I often live and act like I'm in some kind of Truman Show-esque film which is all about me. Except the audience can see my thoughts and understands completely why I act the way I do. In a way I do actually believe this to be true. There is of course the Lord God Almighty, my Father, Jesus Christ and the Comforter, who made me and knows exactly why I do what I do and say what I say. Then there's the cloud of witnesses mentioned at the beginning of Hebrews 12. Seems pretty clear to me that's talking about the heroes of faith who have gone before. Whether they can see my thoughts or not there's got to be a lot of collective wisdom there what with all those lives they've led and then a few years in haven to boot. As a kid I used to like the idea of generations of Bournes (not to mention Barracloughs, Hecks etc) looking down on me and 'cheering me on' but it turns out that wherever my biological ancestors are I've got a superior family who certainly is cheering me on. Then there's the multitudes of angels.
It's often struck me how in God are our deepest longings met and we are at the same time so quick to reject His attempts to meet our needs and so quick to look to other sources to meet them. He's so desperate to be there for us He often meets us in those other things, whether we recognise Him or not. As I recently read in a Speak booklet we are the 'Friends generation' and we're so desperate for true community - a desperation which can only be met by the family of God working the way it should, but we don't believe that (after what we've seen of the church who can blame us) so we hunt for it elsewhere - in facebook, on MSN, wherever we can get it.
In short I enjoy writing so I'm going to use this as a place to write. I think I make the Speak emails so long because I enjoy writing and don't really get any other outlet (except work but that doesn't really count) but it's not really fair to inflict that on the Speak crew so instead I'll use this as a place to type my thoughts as well as possibly experimenting with poems, short stories, song lyrics etc. To be fair I think the Speak emails will stay just as long, I don't think people mind.
It's really quite releasing not having to worry about the length of what I'm writing (always at least a back-of-the-mind issue with emails) and instead just waffling and knowing I'll keep what I've written myself and it'll entertain me in later life.
I think that'll do for this first entry. It's been fun seeing where my thoughts have gone and I'm looking forward to a long a happy future in the world of blogging. Should be good typing practise too.
To be honest that's a bit of a theme of my life. I often live and act like I'm in some kind of Truman Show-esque film which is all about me. Except the audience can see my thoughts and understands completely why I act the way I do. In a way I do actually believe this to be true. There is of course the Lord God Almighty, my Father, Jesus Christ and the Comforter, who made me and knows exactly why I do what I do and say what I say. Then there's the cloud of witnesses mentioned at the beginning of Hebrews 12. Seems pretty clear to me that's talking about the heroes of faith who have gone before. Whether they can see my thoughts or not there's got to be a lot of collective wisdom there what with all those lives they've led and then a few years in haven to boot. As a kid I used to like the idea of generations of Bournes (not to mention Barracloughs, Hecks etc) looking down on me and 'cheering me on' but it turns out that wherever my biological ancestors are I've got a superior family who certainly is cheering me on. Then there's the multitudes of angels.
It's often struck me how in God are our deepest longings met and we are at the same time so quick to reject His attempts to meet our needs and so quick to look to other sources to meet them. He's so desperate to be there for us He often meets us in those other things, whether we recognise Him or not. As I recently read in a Speak booklet we are the 'Friends generation' and we're so desperate for true community - a desperation which can only be met by the family of God working the way it should, but we don't believe that (after what we've seen of the church who can blame us) so we hunt for it elsewhere - in facebook, on MSN, wherever we can get it.
In short I enjoy writing so I'm going to use this as a place to write. I think I make the Speak emails so long because I enjoy writing and don't really get any other outlet (except work but that doesn't really count) but it's not really fair to inflict that on the Speak crew so instead I'll use this as a place to type my thoughts as well as possibly experimenting with poems, short stories, song lyrics etc. To be fair I think the Speak emails will stay just as long, I don't think people mind.
It's really quite releasing not having to worry about the length of what I'm writing (always at least a back-of-the-mind issue with emails) and instead just waffling and knowing I'll keep what I've written myself and it'll entertain me in later life.
I think that'll do for this first entry. It's been fun seeing where my thoughts have gone and I'm looking forward to a long a happy future in the world of blogging. Should be good typing practise too.
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